heart to heart星期三, 十月 13, 2010
2010年10月13日星期三
actually i don't mean to talk .
really .
i'm trying to escape all this
i don't wanna talk i don't wanna discuss
i just pretending i'm alright infront of you
we didn't meet for a long time .
yea kinda
i can feel that you're blessful right now
i don't know
i don't means jealous or what
i know and understand that your new friends will bring you happiness and can take care you very well
i didn't blame.
i didn't.
that message that i sent you
even myself also feel that shock that i'll write so long
before that i thought i'm dead
totally give up on you
maybe cause of our relationship is different from others
is not so easy to do so
after i sent the message
i cried
i never expect my tears will fall
i feel pressure
all the feelings comes to me
all
and i facing myself
i used to laugh
pretend to be happy
be a clown all the time
be a counsellor when you guys need me
somehow i'm a counsellor among you guys and helping you guys but i can't help myself to walk out from all this stuff
i'm such a failure
there's always a gap between me and you guys .
i'm still the outsider .
babe
the long message that you replied i expected
i know you'll explain
i know it
but i still don't know what to do and how to do at this time
i know you can have a better life
as long as you feel happy
♥
i cried
dude
you know what ?
still remember i told you that i saw PJL all over the places ?
is not cause of the PJL but the PJL reminds me of you
each time i saw the alphabet
IT REMINDS ME OF YOU
this is the worst part
each time i passed by the restaurant that we had breakfast together
IT REMINDS ME OF YOU
but i still smiling to face this all
cause i know you worth it .
is okay if you never belongs to me
cause i had done my part .
the movie still goes on until one day
i'll be the main character
i know it.
but no matter how i love you still .
i love the way you are .
babe
i'm shock that you sent me the message and told me that you'll always beside me and love me
ask me don't be EMO
but you never realise you're the reason that cause me EMO .
somehow i put you inside my heart but nothings effect
LOL
silly me
wake up seahling
no one ever care .
yea maybe i'm the one who think too much
but who're the one who cause me think too much ?
ABSENT DAY
